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Dont wanna leave it all behind
But i get my hopes up
And i watch them fall every time
Another colour turns to grey
And its just too hard to watch it all
Slowly fade away>>


Yknow the feeling, like you just travel back in time, and youre actually the you afew months/years back? I kept experiencing this nowadays. =l
Recently, i kept stoning and listening to my mp3, or just flipping through my diaries whenever im at home. And everytime the mp3 plays an old song (okay, maybe not tt olddd like some oldies. But i meant old songs like those songs you heard afew years back.) Yeah, lets continue. Everytime the mp3 plays an old song, i'll feel as though im back in the old times.
For example, 'My boo', our song. Everytime it plays, it feels as though we were both listening to it, and we were still tgt, and every other thing. Aiyah, that kind of feelings. But everytime the song ends, or when i get myself snapped out of it, i'll somehow come to my senses and realised tt 'oh, it's just an illusion.'
The strange thing is, my heart will still go sinkin down to my toes, and i'll still feel quite disappointed. My heart will really really feel empty, and yeah, like i suddenly lost you again, but the secondthird time.
But then again, no. I no longer dream of us getting back tgt anymore. But i still do dream of us bumping to each other one dy on the streets. Then i'll start thinkin, what would the both of us do? Will we be able to be back as friends, and start chatting like good old buddies? Or would we be having awkwards smiles on our faces, and turn around, walking in both opposite directions? =l
Then again, again. This is not the only 'experience', this is just one of the example. Mm, for example, my diary. Okay, for those who doesnt know this. I only write my bare, naked feelings inside my diary. So yeah, everytime i slip through and start reading, i'll find myself feelings exactly the same. be it the happiness, the joy, the sorrow, the heartaches, or the everything. So, im just the who i am at that particular momenet, reliving those emotions again.
Weird huh.
I wouldnt say it's totally a bad thing, i mean, well at least i get to 'live in the past' once more. Some past, which i still do dream about every now and then. Its the 'waking up' part which i dislike. ): The making me come to my senses and making me realise tt 'hey, nth change. Im back stuck in this stupid horrible current reality.' Pfft. This is what makes it so sickening.
I would seriously give up almost everything to get my butt back into the past. Where everything seems alright. The perfect friends, the perfect lover, the perfect sub combi, the perfect class, and of cos, the perfect school.


But like what hafiz said, 'Shit happens.' So i guess, we cant have things go our ways. ):
Gotta study for my bio SPA tmr. See what i mean by we cant have things our ways?
Pfft!
Good night world.


ive got to move on
and be who i am;